girl geek*

top 5 songs that's on geek girl's head 24/7:

complicated- avril lavigne
torn- natalie imbruglia
that weird selecta icream trike song
the swatch commerical tune (liked the snogging part)
'aruba, jamaica, ooh i wanna take you to bahamas, bermuda...boracay..boracay..'
-changed the lyrics, who the hell sang this 80's song??


i am so not looking forward next week's semestral break. really now. i don't. i was definitely looking forward next week's road trip- to boracay. sorta makes me think of leonardo di caprio's movie, the beach. it's paradise. unfortunately, i have NOBODY to go with because john had to move it next next week, when my sem break is finally over. yeah, i know it sucks..big time. i'm currently making a list of things to do for the rest of the week. i'll probably end up being a bum. staying glued to the tv 24/7. pigging out. sleeping. reading. staring at the wall. updating on my 'friendster'...gah. life sucks.


and you know what sucks the most aside from my annoying L.L.S.s (last song syndromes) and my pathetic addiction to friendster (although, i sometimes don't admit it), is that some guys can be really clueless when it comes to girl's moods. okay, i won't start ranting, like i did last night. damn it. i shouldn't feel affected...sadly, i do. maybe it's because i used to like the guy. hahah. newsflash: geekgirl is in love. screw love. love isn't about romance, it's about trust. it's about falling for a person, and thinking that that person will be there. it's about commitment. two people, a couple...only. i guess i shouldn't confuse love with infatuation- or my heart will end up in a doggy bag. hehe. i'm being wayy too overdramatic. what's the difference between overdramatic and melodramatic? i couldn't figure that one out. and the word ointment. why does the word ointment sound weird and ugly, yet appointment is okay. sigh. here we go again...

currently listening to john mayer's comfortable. oooh, what a soothing and irresistible voice. calms down my nerves. lessee. i will attempt to enumerate what i hate in guys who are totally superficial. i hate guys that smoke, guys in their i-don't-care-who-she-is-as-long-as-she's-chinita. i hate guys that like girls who have painstakingly cost a fortune to have their hair rebonded. i hate guys that are superficial. maybe guys like girls who are not vain as well, hopefully me, i don't really enjoy staring at myself at the mirror. and, if people will try to like, diss me and tell me that i'm the most pathetic girl in the universe. well, be my guest. the sole purpose of this so-called blog is to free myself from the troubles that are conflicting in my head. but i am not a psycho. ugh. whatever.

anyway, geeky girls have fun too. just because we're not kikay does not mean we don't belong to the female population of the accepted. most geeky girls like lisa loeb or julia stiles are, she is after all studying @ stamford (correct me if i'm wrong). ugh. oh well, to all u people still reading this. better not. it'll only make you feel sorry for me or hate me...

i am a happy, perkified geek who is in charge of first aid and cpr. ugh. quiz tomorrow. will relocate.

framed/u set me up/ set me down/ and blamed...

i hate life. i mean how many million times will you ever see this phrase in my online/live journals. really, now. let's start off with me being broke for the rest of the weekend because my stupidity and unfortunately my fetish- spending countless hours in front of a pc at a net cafe with 'friendster' your oh-so-friendly online community. honestly, they should have called it 'stalkster' instead of friendster. the idea is to collect friends- not make friends, i guess. and a lot of people have been demanding testimonials..ugh. as if i know them a lot to make a tear-jerker one...it's so sad.

i am still contemplating on life itself. me being here. and not getting over the one person i 'think' i cared about. i guess he's happy with michelle- the girlfriend. and nicole, the pathetic loser from lala land will not intervene whatsoever. i just can't stand them getting all so lovey-dovey even on the internet. granted, i feel like such a moron, still gaping at their pathetic pictures, and letting my heart break into a million pieces. merde. that's my life.

i am a geek. it is certifiably proven. why? because i wear glasses. it's like this rite of passage to a million geeks everywhere. proof no. 2: i write- a lot. i write when i'm bored in miss regala's english class, i scribble at every corner of every inch of what st. paul college of manila call a 'desk'. i am currently adapting to that situation where my glasses fall off my face and i constantly push it back up my nose. yes, sad but true. however, even as i find this experience odd, i feel like a new person...even if i know i'm not supposed to wear glasses- they're fake and just a part of my oddity.